Today, thanks to the wonderfulness of my husband, I was able to go out to Barnes and Noble – all. by. my. self. I had a sandwich, and read my Bible. I journaled while listening to music. I went shopping, at Barnes and Noble and at a nearby accessories store. I did all of this uninterrupted. It was utterly blissful.
The journal was a Christmas gift from my sister. It’s large – about normal spiral size (A4 for those outside the US). The best part of this gift, however, wasn’t the journal – it was the mix CDs my sister made for me and put in the back pocket of the journal, to be listened to while journaling. There are 5 CDs, each with a different theme. They are absolutely wonderful. Seeing as my sister knows me quite well AND is well on her way to being a music therapist, this isn’t exactly surprising.
So, I journaled. I wrote about my blessings and I wrote about motherhood – how even now, almost a year after my daughter’s birth, I still feel blindsided by it and I’m still trying to figure out how to be ME and be a mother at the same time. Actually writing all of that down felt healing. The journal itself was a bit awkward to write in because it was so large, but at the same time I loved having all of that space. Listening to the music added something to the journaling…and even brought me close to tears at one point.
So, that was my day. I think I should do this more often..it’s good for my mental health.